My journey as a human, a lover, a maker of mistakes, a
forgiver, and a searcher, has taught me so much. After recently experiencing
some significant life shifts and much self reflection, I have come to this.
To my detractors, the judgers, the doubters, the ones whom could
not look me in the eye, and love me when I needed you, I forgive you. I forgive
you for not understanding, not having the time, having too many doubts, or
being too constricted by your beliefs of how things should be, to stand with me where I was. I forgive the
absence of phone calls, invitations, and your reluctance to offer a shoulder or
an attentive ear. I forgive you because I am you, I have been there, I have failed to be present when I was needed. I hope I
have learned more acceptance, more patience, and how to better hold space for
those that I love.
To those who have held my hand, thank you. Thank you for not
questioning, not needing answers, for letting me be. Thank you for wiping my
tears and helping me breathe through the rough stuff. Thank you for not burying
me with shoulds, and worrying me with questions. You gave me what I needed
most. Unconditional love and room to make transformations. I hope to use you as
examples of what to aspire to. Thank you.
Most importantly, I am learning to be me, my most authentic
self. That is when my life is filled with more love and more joy. I owe it to
myself to respect and treasure my own being, to forgive and love myself, to
fill my own cup, and only then will I have abundance of love, grace and
forgiveness for those around me.